Tomorrow I go in for my first fertility tests: hormone and genetic testing, plus an ultrasound. Right now I’m less nervous than I was before my first appointment. I think it’s partly because I’ve at least already been to the office and felt comfortable there. That part is less of an unknown now. Partly it could also be because I’ve been reading so much about everything that I pretty much know what to expect. I’m just going in for the tests and will only minimally be able to figure out what the results all mean for now.

More than being nervous, I’ve been anxious…constantly anxious. It’s difficult to think of anything else. Many of the women on the forum I joined refer to this process as constantly waiting in 2 week increments or cycles. Because the chances are so low to conceive the first time, they’ve been going through it month after month. When you’re still in my stage which is testing, the waiting begins after your first visit with the specialist (RE) until you start your cycle. Then you have a few tests to take. I have the appointment tomorrow and then another one for the HSG scheduled for next Wednesday. After that there’s waiting to meet with the RE to go over the results and talk next steps.

I’m anticipating that I’d be able to start on my next cycle, which means that the waiting will then be for my cycle to start again with possible monitoring in the 2 weeks until ovulation. Then insemination would take place and I’d have to wait 2 weeks for the official pregnancy test by the doctor. If it doesn’t work, then it starts all over again. I know I’m thinking ahead…honestly this initial waiting to take the tests has been torturous enough. I have high hopes (and so does the doctor) that based on my age and medical history, I shouldn’t have any issues and should be good to go. However, it is all just optimistic thoughts at this point.

I’m excited to get started…I guess my only wish is that time would go by a little more quickly.