I have a confession to make. I’m not going to tell you guys when I’m pregnant.

I know that might sound crazy considering how open I’ve been throughout this process, but I don’t want to make it too public until I make it through the first trimester. I’ve witnessed a couple of times where people have spread the news early on, only to have a miscarriage. Then I’ve seen as someone asks her how the pregnancy is going and watched her try to manage her best not to burst out in tears. The more widespread the news gets, the harder it is if G_d forbid the pregnancy ends.

I’ve debated this a lot in my head over the last few weeks in terms of what I owe my readers (all 10 of you) and what I feel comfortable with. Everyone has been so supportive and I truly appreciate that. I figure that you’ll still be able to know if I get a positive result or not.

If I don’t get a positive pregnancy test this cycle, then I’ll immediately be writing about prepping for the next cycle: what it felt like to get a negative, appointments for the next IUI, etc. If I do get a positive, then I’ll be posting about random stuff not related to my journey to motherhood. So essentially that’s the way I’d be letting you know. I would just ask that all of you respect that by not directly asking me anything about the pregnancy until I make it through the first trimester and announce it. Just pretend you don’t know 🙂

As for where I am today…I have been feeling cramps for the last couple of days although I don’t know if I’m just imagining them. This Friday I have a progesterone blood test. Then on the 24th or 25th, I go in for a pregnancy blood test if I haven’t started a new cycle by then.

4 thoughts on “Confession”

  1. When I got pregnant with Jack I had to go on progesterone injections because my level was low. They sucked but were obviously worth it in the end. I also miscarried the pregnancy I had just before Jack. If you ever want to talk about your journey with someone who has been through something similar let me know! Wishing you well these next few weeks!

    1. Thanks Jessica! I had my progesterone test this morning, so by late afternoon I’ll know if I need to supplement at all. It’s great to have all the support, but also to have others who have gone through the same thing!

  2. Again I have crazy love and respect for you! When this baby comes to you he/she will know that they are loved and wanted.

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